How to say this?
There are a handful of people for whom--if they found the blog, and if they realized it was me--I would take it all down. Also, I would very much stop running off at the mouth. Because sometimes what I write is an instantaneous moment of thought that changes or becomes clearer just several moments later. And someone I know could read what I write, get the wrong idea, and then I've screwed up some shit, haven't I? The answer is that I very well may have. Because I can be an idiot. But see? CJ's trying to be much less idiotic!
When I started this thingie, I was pretty much a mess. How to start dating again after so long? Would I find someone else? Did I even do the right thing? My life changed entirely, and the chaos felt more orderly if I wrote about it.
But things are better now. I'm kind of liking this dating life. I'm enjoying being sexy and alluring--and finding parts of me that have been dormant for a long time. I wasn't dating for the sake of the blog. I was blogging to cope with the dates. Don't get me wrong--I'm still dying to dish. But other things are more important.
Some of you have already emailed me wondering where the blog went. That was fast! And thanks for your concern and support. It's very likely the blog will begin again, and who knows how soon. If you leave a comment here with your email, or send me an email at email@example.com, then I'll let you know if/when the whole crazy shebang returns.
It's been fun. It's also been torturous. But then, isn't that dating?