Sunday, July 15, 2007

A sketchy update.

Darky is not out of the picture. If I were a betting gal, I would say he'd ask me for a 3rd date. I just wish he gave me butterflies.

As to SmartAlec? Goooood Lord. What an emotional roller coaster these past few days have been. I am literally spent. I haven't liked a guy this much since I can remember. And boy, am I disappointed right now. Hurt. Completely confused. But I know I will be okay. Give me a couple days. Don't worry for Cute Jewess.

I trust easily. And I'm okay with that. I don't even feel stupid--I'd rather trust too much than not enough. I even think that someday I'll find the right guy to give that trust to.

--Cute Jewess


Dating Trooper - Dating is Warfare said...

Hang in there, CJ! Do something nice for yourself today to remind you that life is wonderful and no SmartAlec can change that!

Heather said...

As long as you're ok!!!!

Thinking of you!


jody said...

"I haven't liked a guy this much since I can remember."

How can you forget? You felt the same way about SS, remember?? I don't understand why you keep falling for "emotionally unavailable" men!

Cute Jewess said...

No, Jody, I remember SS of course. I really liked him, and I still miss him, and I still wish it had worked out. But I felt more for SmartAlec. We had a very intense, if short, time together. So no, I did not feel the same way about SS. Literally, I can't remember the last time I had those kind of intense feelings for a guy. Perhaps it was in college. It wasn't love, which I had with the FAF. was something very visceral.

As for both SS and SmartAlec, I started to like them before I *knew* they were emotionally unavailable. I wish SmartAlec had acted as considerately as SS did. This one really did a number on me, in the way you can't imagine people would act.

jgo said...

I dont understand how something can be so intense and also be so short. We need more details. You make good points and I agree its better to trust too much then not enough. I have no clue what SmartAlec did but are sure it wasnt all and act to get into your pants? Take care of yourself CJ.

MATCHinform said...

I think that it is great that you put yourself out there. Intense relationships are so much fun if you can emotionally handle them, not to mention efficient. The ones that fail are short, but the ones that work become the material for fairy tales and movie scripts. So what if some people think you are a little crazy, so long as it doesn’t interfere with the mundane tasks of live, it’s much more fun and exciting to live life as a hapless romantic.

walt said...

Hey CJ - sorry to hear about the apparent disaster with SmartAleck, but you saw some bad signs almost from the beginning. I guess the lesson for the future is to bail as soon as you see the signs, or at least harden your skin so you don't get hurt, if you can do that.

jody said...

Wish you would fill us in on where and when you met him, how long you saw him, etc.