I emailed RH about last night with SS--including all the details I didn't write here. And she wrote me back this really encouraging email (slightly edited to hide one or two of those pesky details):

"you are 1,800 degrees from a few months ago. You sound so different, in such a good way. Great reaction, great analysis, great way of handling things, etc. You sound so mature and confident and kind. He is really lucky that you're [around]. I'm really proud of you, and I think it's highly commendable that you're willing to give this a try when it's already difficult in the very beginning. But it could really be worth it...

Um, nice on the yummy body. That right there makes it worth it."

That made me feel good. Then again, SS's yummy body would make me feel good too. Sigh.

My problem right now is wondering when I'll get to see him again. He's not one to reach out. So...although I know he wants to hang out again, I'm very unsure when that will happen. In the meantime, I'm scheduling all my other dates: Big Cute Dork, Eager Beaver, and...well, today I did something different.

For the very first time, I asked out one of the guys I've been corresponding with rather than waiting for him to do so. I'm not sure it was the right thing to do, but Hottie1 and I had such a good rapport, that I thought I'd take the plunge. Will he get in touch back? Or will he ignore me? Hmmm...

--Cute Jewess