I'm feeling sad about SS, with whom there were more developments last night.
I have choices to make, and I'm not sure what I'm going to do.
I hesitate to write about it here for one reason only: I do not want your advice on this one.
The nature of a blog--especially a dating blog--is that it's a breeding ground for what's come to be known in the blogosphere as "assvice" (and I've always hated the term, by the way, because of the good intentions behind it). This is unasked-for advice that readers want to give you because they become invested in your story, have likely had similiar experiences, and feel they can help you. I know it's well-meaning, and I appreciate that. Sometimes it helps me. Sometimes it doesn't.
Right now it's just not wanted.
You will likely have an opinion of what I should do with SS. But this is a decision I would very much like to make on my own. I can also imagine posting the story and then getting well-meaning comments such as "I know you don't want to hear this, but...." Yeah, I don't want that either. If I were to make the decision, and write about it afterwards? And you'd want to tell me I did the wrong thing? Nope. Don't want to hear that either. Even a general "You should" of any kind...I'm not in the mood for right now.
So, while I'm thinking recent events over, I'll see what happens. Maybe SS will just be out of the picture.
Oh, and do I want emails asking "off the record" what happened? I do not. Please don't be offended if you email along those lines and I do not answer, because I won't.
So there. A very maddening post to read, I am certain. Why write at all? Because I'm feeling sad. And sometimes when I feel sad, writing here makes me feel better. That would be the only thing I'm looking for right now.